Trapped in this new me, but I feel so free.
As I explore and discover…reveal and uncover – myself.
I could never see the ease in life, because the alligators were in my way.
Hiding the true simplicity of appreciating each day.
And as I let go
And stopped caring about what I didn’t know…
And told myself to stop thinking and just flow,
I realized that life doesn’t happen yesterday or tomorrow.
And by regretting and foreseeing…I was living in sorrow.
That there was so much more,
To do and explore…
And now I feel freer – than ever before.
Because wherever I go – well there I am.
And regardless of if I begin with a plan…
What will happen will be,
The day will reveal things to see…
And I’ll deal with the challenges and do what I can.
But the living in fear of what might or not be -
Is no longer the destiny that I want for me.
Because though there will be challenges – often and real,
I can live in my moments – and feel what I feel.
For tomorrow might bring things I don’t find okay,
But why would that stop me from living today?
I have a great skill,
And a much greater will…
And can truly make wonders from perceived disarray.
But I thought this confidence was so far away…
When it was waiting for me to say I was okay,
To forgive and to heal
Look at myself and be real,
And then it would join me on this brand new day.
But now that I have it, and can see things anew…
And know that life’s moments are fleeting and few.
I’ll do what I can,
For once be a man…
And do what feels right for myself, and not you.
